24 April 2008

I was Lost but now I am found

I took a hiatus, like the TV show Lost (which also came back on today). Lost has such a cult following these days. The lab tech was going to go shopping but now will postpone shopping to watch Lost. Even the relatively estudious Eunki Hong will breakdown and occasionally catch up on Lost.

However, I am going to resist torrenting it (and it would be done before I could finish my vanilla yogurt + canned fruit kickaessery) and instead, I'll wait for it to be released online so I can watch it in full HD.

There's only a week and a day of undergrad left and I am feeling nothing. In fact, I want to leave even more badly. Well, in 2-and-a-half weeks, I'll be gone. No more austin, less hippies, moving on to bigger and better things. The only thing I'll really miss is Mueller Lab and things associated with that. Other than that, screw this place. The more I think about it, the more ridiculous it gets. Why would anyone want to live here? It's such a small, crappy city. One pretty much cannot go anywhere between 4-7pm since I35 connects everything and is always jammed during that time. When I first got here, I was surprised that they even had high-speed internet. "Must be one of those pilot projects in rural areas kind of thing" is what I thought...

I'm glad these last 4 years haven't lulled myself into thinking or behaving like a hippie (for the most part). The fact that I still have a burning desire reassures myself that I still have a similar sense of ambition I did 4 years ago, that I still think similarly, and that I wouldn't have it any other way.

But not everything can stay the same. The physics and pre-med routine have created a unique blend of quirkiness and peculiarity. Normal people don't go to BCM. Sacrifices must be made, which begs the question - what do I lack? The same ardent ambition that pulled me through the last four years has left me heartless and soulless. I was a scarecrow when I first entered UT, but now I am Tin Woodsman. And I would not have it any other way.