I still have no idea what that means, but that's not the point.
Right now, Thursday morning, I have no intention of calling her. In fact, it distresses me that she's expecting a call on some level. It's like I have this obligation to fulfill. I bet you guys were expecting some sappy love story, but I keep making all these strange analogies to this situation.
For example, I woke up this morning, and I thought, I should not let this progress anymore, because it means an added time investment. I started comparing this "thing" growing to a tumor. It must be excised before it causes harm.
Ironically, iPod + Bose was playing "Numb" this morning:
i've become so numb
i can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
i'm becoming this
all i want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you
Even stranger, there's a part of me that smiles because of this. Humans are so flawed. Being devoid of emotion would be incredibly ideal. Well, at least I hope I stay numb.
What a depressing post. In the meanwhile, I've been collecting all these BBC Horizon documentaries. They're really good! Yes. I think I would rather watch BBC Horizon than call anyone to hang out. wtf is wrong with me.
Probably one of those ephemeral phases.
Also, Korean movies. I like those too. But you know that.